Stone Soup

But it will get better, they promise me.

Homecare nurse arrived before 8:00 AM, I went out to meet her in the parking
lot because it is a little difficult to find this place first time. She set
the pump up and gave me instructions and her telephone number in case
anything went wrong. Driving to the office the alarm began to beep and I
went in with the alarm sounding. Called her and she talked me through
resetting it. Air bubbles had collected and had to be cleared. I was
afraid of the pump. Two more calls to the Nurse and 4 hours later, I am no
longer afraid of the pump.

Side effects began to be apparent right away. I lost vision during the day
in the upper regions of my eyes. I was less steady on my feet and knew I
would be unable to drive home. Called my son who said he would be there to
drive me home at 3:30. I got outside at the appointed time and waited
twenty minutes, hanging onto a post but he didn't show up. I went back
inside to call him and he was standing in line at the bank. I fell apart.
I was so exhausted.

Lynda, a friend in the office, came over towards my desk and I was crying.
I shooed her away, sympathy at that time would have made me totally loose
it. I apologized to her later. She understood and was very
encouraging...more tears. Tears just keep coming. Depression is apparently
one of the side effects of this medication and perhaps the reason for the
tears. I have lost 14 lbs on a diet recently. The saline solution used the
past two days has made me regain 4 lbs. Discouraging. I have to see this
through because it will help.

Many people have offered encouragement in the comments at my last post and I
thank each one of you for the emotional support. I am just too tired to
respond right now but I will...it is going to get better here.

Tomorrow I am going to a family bbq at my daughter-in-law's parents
home--after the third iv has finished. I hope to enjoy the day and I look
forward to it very much.