Thoughts in the night

Maybe the worst is over...it is 3:30 AM and my head is clear. My vision is
not but that will come. I woke up in a panic thinking about MS and how my
life has changed. I haven't come to terms with it. The worst isn't over at
all...it is perhaps only beginning. Why do I have it? This wasn't my plan
at all. I turned 60 at the end of May and had planned to retire and travel.
Why doesn't the College of Radiologists, the government, the MS Society, the
medical community in general embrace a cure that seems to be working on so
many? Why are they trying to squash it? Why are they shutting down
studies, testing, closing doors when they should be opening them? I don't
have time to wait for this.